marketeer
Feb 24, 2004, 03:10 PM
I don't know why I decided to post in here. Prob I needed a way to vent my feelings, to make myself feel better. Prob, some people would be able to relate with me. You probably would have experienced the same way that I am feeling right now. Never have I imagine my life would turn out this way. I thought with pure determination and perseverance, it would be enough. It wasn't. I needed luck and I needed HIS approval and guidance.
you would probably consider me as your typical student. one that you see in telenovelas, a poor guy who dreams of one day achieving his dreams. in high school, i graduated top of my class. i landed in one of the top 3 schools (if there is such a term, maybe but i don't think so...anymore) i took up a business course, my first choice.
when i was in college, i was very active in school. i held key positions in numerous organizations. i was in the student council. i knew a lot of people. i "networked" around. i was invited into a lot of seminars and conferences here and there, travelled here and there, represented my school etc etc, name it. (did it help me? :shedtears:)
not just that, i juggled a part time job. i have worked at a bank as a telemarketer to earn. i did not come from a rich family, not like my schoolmates. i did buying and selling, not primarily coz i liked the idea of doing it but it was out of need. same with my telemarketing job. people get amazed how i have managed my time. i had to earn coz my parents could not sustain the cost of living here in manila. i also thought, this would make my resume look better in the future.
my life was like a telenovela. i never would have thought i would be able to do those. taking a part time job, active in school and somehow managed to pull up my grades as well.... my friends would always tell me i was "good" that i would definitely land into a promising career. i took up a personaliy test and i was deemed to be a millionaire. oh yeah....:shedtears: but i kept my foot on the ground, never lost hope someday i would make it big time in the corporate world and be able to help out my parents. to add to it, my parents seem to "bet" on me as the lucky kid coz they think i sort of "made" it.
now here comes job fair, final year in college. i tailored my resume. i ironed it so many times. it was even like 3-4 pages initially (now it’s 1 page) bec of all the curricular achievements that i have. when i graduated, i already had 4 part time jobs in my resume, all with good recommendations from my previous employers. all the companies that went to my school, i submitted amy resumes. i skip class just to submit resumes. i prepared. i talked to some career consultants to evaluate my resume. they said it was ok and good enough. I attended counseling and they say my job objectives were perfect and matched with my personality. my thesis was a finalist when I graduated as well.
2 months before graduation, no one had seemed to call me yet. a month before, the companies started calling. i had been interviewed a dozen times. big companies to small companies. i practiced before the interview. i rehearsed my answers. i researched about the company before i went there. i studied the job requirements to make sure if they ask me about it, i would be able to answer them. everything was ready, from SSS, to NBI, transcript. i was waiting for an employer to embrace me. i was ready.
i graduated in march, still no final job offer. others also have not found one yet. to make life harder, my parents "pressured" me that i need to find a job soon coz they could not pay for my allowance anymore. when i graduated, i burdened my parents with a very very big loan and debt from people. i know my parents love me so much and they really want me to make it..
i was desperate, i texted people that i knew from all industries I know of. they said this and that, but no one was able to help me or so.
i dug into the directory, began calling companies from A-Z, submitted my resume online, did walk-ins. i had to find a job coz it was needed badly. I had to fine one asap. unlike my friends, there was no pressure. they were rich. they can afford to take a vacation first. go to boracay or elsewhere. me, we were poor. i had to work now. no rest.
one day, i got an email from somebody about a job opening. i got accepted finally. it was an unknown company. very small. it had 20 employees with them. the work was ok. but the pressure was tremendous. i did not know the history of the company. i found out later, the former employees had mass resigned. all of them due to poor management. i got the chance to talk to the former employees. and they said, i sort of made a "bad" decision, somehow it was correct. my bosses were harsh to me. but i kept quiet, and then the others started resigning again. many have happened, our salaries got delayed, etc etc more problems came up. i cried like hell. my friends began urging me to resign.
one day, my boss transferred me to the sales dept. i was on probation then. i sort of did not have a choice. and then there were quotas. in the beginning, i never signed up for a sales job. i was in marketing. i would work on saturdays just to meet my targets - no pay. i was kind to them but somehow, they did not do their share in the bargain.
i left the company in sept. i was so humiliated but i was still nice to them. i still see my old officemates til now. when i left, they did not pay me yet my last pay and my separation pay. they still owe me money up to now. the company was in bad condition when i talked to our accountant. when i resigned i had no fallback. no security, no money. Yet when i left i still got a letter of recommendations from my bosses. they never knew how i felt bad with them. i kept quiet. when i left, i was promoted already to a brand assistant. but emotionally and spiritually, I had no more energy.
1 month of job seeking, i haven't found out luck yet. and with all humility, i took a call center job. got hired in oct. the pay was low, but i needed money badly. graveyard. it was hard. physically i was devastated. i got sick and lost weight. from long sleeves to plain white shirt, i began the call center work. for me, i was humbled and it made me feel bad about myself. The people were nice to me, a lot better. The management was supportive as well.
whenever i see some old college friends, they seem to be ok now. those people who i think have never paid attention to their studies, who were "relaxed" somehow ended in the good big named companies. they were earning well. and they had good positions. when they ask how i was doing, i never admitted to them what had happened to me coz up to now it was difficult to admit to myself that i somehow had failed. i did my best. i did my best in school. i did my best in my previous work.
right now i began to do the hardwork of job seeking again. i make it to the 1st, 2nd and final interviews and somehow i lose to the others that have experience already. i know. that's life. and somehow HR managers would be surprised to see my resume now. they seem to think i don't have any direction. to add more pressure, my baby sister is going to college in june. my dad had asked me to help out financially. Can life be a lost worst?
right now, what i have been doing was thinking, praying, submitting resumes here and there., still no luck.
i don't know why i deciced to post in here. I would always ask myself.what went wrong? Did I miss something in the process? Wasn’t I good enough? I swallowed everything that have happened to me, kept a humble soul and embraced all trials with dignity.
it's really harsh out there. but i haven't lose hope yet. i feel like i'm running out of time. my mom wants me to go home on march. she misses me. i don't know....
i just hope we all get lucky guys here in the corporate world.
i wish you all the luck. id be happy to read out your advices, posts or replies. if you wanna send me a private message, you can email me here. marketeer@icx.net
ciao! I still have a shift later in the evening….
you would probably consider me as your typical student. one that you see in telenovelas, a poor guy who dreams of one day achieving his dreams. in high school, i graduated top of my class. i landed in one of the top 3 schools (if there is such a term, maybe but i don't think so...anymore) i took up a business course, my first choice.
when i was in college, i was very active in school. i held key positions in numerous organizations. i was in the student council. i knew a lot of people. i "networked" around. i was invited into a lot of seminars and conferences here and there, travelled here and there, represented my school etc etc, name it. (did it help me? :shedtears:)
not just that, i juggled a part time job. i have worked at a bank as a telemarketer to earn. i did not come from a rich family, not like my schoolmates. i did buying and selling, not primarily coz i liked the idea of doing it but it was out of need. same with my telemarketing job. people get amazed how i have managed my time. i had to earn coz my parents could not sustain the cost of living here in manila. i also thought, this would make my resume look better in the future.
my life was like a telenovela. i never would have thought i would be able to do those. taking a part time job, active in school and somehow managed to pull up my grades as well.... my friends would always tell me i was "good" that i would definitely land into a promising career. i took up a personaliy test and i was deemed to be a millionaire. oh yeah....:shedtears: but i kept my foot on the ground, never lost hope someday i would make it big time in the corporate world and be able to help out my parents. to add to it, my parents seem to "bet" on me as the lucky kid coz they think i sort of "made" it.
now here comes job fair, final year in college. i tailored my resume. i ironed it so many times. it was even like 3-4 pages initially (now it’s 1 page) bec of all the curricular achievements that i have. when i graduated, i already had 4 part time jobs in my resume, all with good recommendations from my previous employers. all the companies that went to my school, i submitted amy resumes. i skip class just to submit resumes. i prepared. i talked to some career consultants to evaluate my resume. they said it was ok and good enough. I attended counseling and they say my job objectives were perfect and matched with my personality. my thesis was a finalist when I graduated as well.
2 months before graduation, no one had seemed to call me yet. a month before, the companies started calling. i had been interviewed a dozen times. big companies to small companies. i practiced before the interview. i rehearsed my answers. i researched about the company before i went there. i studied the job requirements to make sure if they ask me about it, i would be able to answer them. everything was ready, from SSS, to NBI, transcript. i was waiting for an employer to embrace me. i was ready.
i graduated in march, still no final job offer. others also have not found one yet. to make life harder, my parents "pressured" me that i need to find a job soon coz they could not pay for my allowance anymore. when i graduated, i burdened my parents with a very very big loan and debt from people. i know my parents love me so much and they really want me to make it..
i was desperate, i texted people that i knew from all industries I know of. they said this and that, but no one was able to help me or so.
i dug into the directory, began calling companies from A-Z, submitted my resume online, did walk-ins. i had to find a job coz it was needed badly. I had to fine one asap. unlike my friends, there was no pressure. they were rich. they can afford to take a vacation first. go to boracay or elsewhere. me, we were poor. i had to work now. no rest.
one day, i got an email from somebody about a job opening. i got accepted finally. it was an unknown company. very small. it had 20 employees with them. the work was ok. but the pressure was tremendous. i did not know the history of the company. i found out later, the former employees had mass resigned. all of them due to poor management. i got the chance to talk to the former employees. and they said, i sort of made a "bad" decision, somehow it was correct. my bosses were harsh to me. but i kept quiet, and then the others started resigning again. many have happened, our salaries got delayed, etc etc more problems came up. i cried like hell. my friends began urging me to resign.
one day, my boss transferred me to the sales dept. i was on probation then. i sort of did not have a choice. and then there were quotas. in the beginning, i never signed up for a sales job. i was in marketing. i would work on saturdays just to meet my targets - no pay. i was kind to them but somehow, they did not do their share in the bargain.
i left the company in sept. i was so humiliated but i was still nice to them. i still see my old officemates til now. when i left, they did not pay me yet my last pay and my separation pay. they still owe me money up to now. the company was in bad condition when i talked to our accountant. when i resigned i had no fallback. no security, no money. Yet when i left i still got a letter of recommendations from my bosses. they never knew how i felt bad with them. i kept quiet. when i left, i was promoted already to a brand assistant. but emotionally and spiritually, I had no more energy.
1 month of job seeking, i haven't found out luck yet. and with all humility, i took a call center job. got hired in oct. the pay was low, but i needed money badly. graveyard. it was hard. physically i was devastated. i got sick and lost weight. from long sleeves to plain white shirt, i began the call center work. for me, i was humbled and it made me feel bad about myself. The people were nice to me, a lot better. The management was supportive as well.
whenever i see some old college friends, they seem to be ok now. those people who i think have never paid attention to their studies, who were "relaxed" somehow ended in the good big named companies. they were earning well. and they had good positions. when they ask how i was doing, i never admitted to them what had happened to me coz up to now it was difficult to admit to myself that i somehow had failed. i did my best. i did my best in school. i did my best in my previous work.
right now i began to do the hardwork of job seeking again. i make it to the 1st, 2nd and final interviews and somehow i lose to the others that have experience already. i know. that's life. and somehow HR managers would be surprised to see my resume now. they seem to think i don't have any direction. to add more pressure, my baby sister is going to college in june. my dad had asked me to help out financially. Can life be a lost worst?
right now, what i have been doing was thinking, praying, submitting resumes here and there., still no luck.
i don't know why i deciced to post in here. I would always ask myself.what went wrong? Did I miss something in the process? Wasn’t I good enough? I swallowed everything that have happened to me, kept a humble soul and embraced all trials with dignity.
it's really harsh out there. but i haven't lose hope yet. i feel like i'm running out of time. my mom wants me to go home on march. she misses me. i don't know....
i just hope we all get lucky guys here in the corporate world.
i wish you all the luck. id be happy to read out your advices, posts or replies. if you wanna send me a private message, you can email me here. marketeer@icx.net
ciao! I still have a shift later in the evening….